I'm still here wondering where did it all go wrong??? We may have taken advantage of you but we never expect you to leave...
Sure maybe we weren't there to talk to you but we were always loving you constantly and even though some of us went for holidays...We still didn't expect you to leave us so suddenly.
Some may rejoice in your sudden departure but I will always remain shocked and puzzled of why you unexpectedly went to heaven.
Some may say that you had problems with your heart, and some may say that you were feeling under the weather but I think that you were really sad that all of us wasn't there to talk to you.
And then there was the P.D trip. That trip was supposedly for you to have 1 last memoirs of happy time as 1 big happy family (Just like my mom's family in Bali) but then you went away and we all cancelled it even though Aunty Kim (mai lan) said we could continue with it.
Up till Today, I still blame myself for not letting anyone know that I was the last relative you called at exactly 7.45pm on Sunday nite until you went away so surprisingly. I cried over the fact that I could have told someone and they could've help you. But I didn't. Here's the convo that we had for the very last time...
PoPo & Aida
Hello???
Yes?? Popo ah??
Yes yes.Is this Aida? or is it Ailsa?
Its Aida popo.
So what are you doing now? Where's mummy?
Me and Ailsa are eating pizza at home because mummy and daddy went out to their friend's dinner party.
Why dont you and ailsa come over during the holidays??? Because Teck Jiang they all went for their holiday in Penang already so Popo very alone at home.
Oh ok Popo. Let me ask mummy first ok?
Ok larh. You and Ailsa can come over anytime ok?
Ok then bye bye.
And by the time my mom and dad came back ( it was 1 in the morning ) so I was already fast asleep.
Next day, as I was in the toilet...Ailsa was crying outside already so I ask her what's wrong but she didn't give me an answer. So I just went to do my business in the toilet and as I was doing that, mummy came in and told me that you were already in heaven.
I was shocked then!!! Then mummy asked us to get ready cause we were going to your house.
When we reached there, we all broke down and cried!
And then there was 3 full days of chanting and on Wednesday they burnt her ashes and ALL OF US broke down and cried and I kept tinkin what if you were still alive but that won't be possible.
Thursday
We all picked some bones of yours and put them in a urn and then after everyone had had their chance, the caretaker crush them and put in the rest...they are also going to scatter the loose ashes into a river...
I will never forget you my dearest popo!
